My name is Sandra Heggen, though I prefer Sam.
I’m pleased you found this place and I’m really glad to see you here. I hope you enjoy your visit.
The name of this blog, Search for Soul, reflects what I call my Hero’s/Heroine’s Journey. For way too many of us our soul is seen as something “out there” or “in here,” the immortal and divine part of our human existence with which we cannot communicate. I know now this is not true. I’ll get into this in more detail as the blog develops.
I intend to publish two kinds of posts here; one type called “Chapters” will be essentially chapters from my spiritual memoir. The other type will be shorter pieces called “Musings and Other Shorts.” The “Musings” will be pieces that are, well, musings about daily happenings and thoughts. There might be some relationship between the Chapters and Musings but not always.
In the meantime, here’s a little mundane information about me. I was born and raised in northwest Ohio, in farm country. After high school I went to Cleveland to learn to be a laboratory technician, had some really interesting experiences, and met my husband-to-be through circumstances that wouldn’t even be believable in fiction.
We were married at Fort Gordon, near Augusta, Georgia, (more circumstances), and he was then sent to Korea for thirteen months, so our first year together was spent apart. When he returned, I was expected to wait for him in Ohio while he finished up his enlistment in Texas. However, now that no oceans separated us, I couldn’t be deterred and one miserable cold, gray, Ohio November day in 1966 my sister and I set out for sunny Texas with all our belongings in a 4 x 6 U-Haul trailer.
I immediately felt at home in central Texas, like I’d never felt at home in Ohio. Once we were together again, my husband decided to re-enlist instead of return to Ohio. Over the next few years I worked as a lab tech, eventually going to work for Federal Civil Service, first at the military hospital at Fort Hood, then at the blood donor center where I was the supervisor of the first ever large-scale frozen blood storage facility.
However, before much of that, about six years after I arrived, my husband was assigned to do a tour in Viet Nam after first making a couple of stops along the way to get further training. This time I waited in the house we’d bought and where I was when I was served with divorce papers. I lived there for the next twenty-six years. I now live with my partner of thirty-two years on nine acres in a rural area outside Fort Hood. I still feel at home.
A little over fifteen years ago I had what I call a crash and burn, big time. It was a complete physical, emotional, mental, and, I suppose, spiritual collapse. It might have been called a nervous breakdown at an earlier time. This collapse put me on the road to discovering my soul. It also brought me to recognize the Hero’s Journey. It’s been only recently that I discovered the Heroine’s Journey.
Some of what I’ll be writing here will refer to the traditional Hero’s Journey as expounded by Joseph Campbell. It’s not just a female taking the masculine aspect of the Hero’s Journey, although women do that. Then there’s the Heroine’s Journey, which has a different purpose and it’s not something I was familiar with or heard about until recently. Taking both of these Journeys is a part of becoming whole, of finding our soul, of becoming truly human, whether male or female, and in the process discovering and having a relationship with the divine part of ourselves.
So, if this resonates with you, I welcome you to join me and others who recognize experiences similar to mine in their own lives and we can help each other take this Journey together.