A couple of months ago, July 13, I wrote my view of karma. It wasn’t exactly what is often thought of as karma, namely, “payback.” Today I have more to say on the subject, and it’s still not about payback.
Last night as I was falling asleep I suddenly got a hint of another view of karma and, well, I was too far gone to wake up and write it down so I just told my Self, “You have to remind me of this in the morning because I can’t do anything about it now.” And I was out.
I hope I still have it straight this morning.
Many years ago, when I was barely starting out on this spiritual/metaphysical path, I had my first reading by a psychic. She mentioned that this was my completion lifetime. I was such a neophyte I had to ask her what that meant. Seems my main purpose in “coming in” this time was to clear out any remaining karma I’d accumulated over past lifetimes so I wouldn’t have to return again.
Unless I wanted to, of course. She told me “They can always use volunteers.” Even I had to laugh at that. (You can read more about what she told me in the memoir chapters.) I just figured I had a lot of payback to make up and went on.
So, last night I suddenly had this sense that clearing my karma didn’t have to mean I had things to make up for or actions to take to learn a lesson I’d “failed” or anything like that. What it could mean was that I had energy blockages in my soul (“karma”) and those blockages were manifesting in my body as physical symptoms, ergo, karma. Not an uncommon idea, at least in some circles.
And what might those blockages be? That’s a bit more difficult for me to figure out and maybe it’s not even necessary. I surmised they could be things like fear, timidity, selfishness, anger, defensiveness, arrogance. In other words, “character defects” in the soul. Not something I did or didn’t do but simply ideas and attitudes I’d picked up from past lives that I hadn’t gotten rid of yet.
Information not really earthshaking but still, of interest to me.
About two weeks ago I had what medical people call Fever of Unknown Origin. No infectious illness, no sniffles or coughing, no nausea or digestive upsets, etc (Well, just one that we needn’t get into. No, not that one. *G*). Just sudden onset of hot dry skin, chills and shaking, and pounding, racing heart. If I’d been outside in the sun instead of inside after dark with the AC on, I’d have thought “Heat stroke.”
Now, I’m one of those people who “never get sick,” because I’m rarely exposed to people since I’m mostly at home, so this was pretty attention-getting.
I went to bed, bundled up under the down comforter (and I’m always too warm to use more than a sheet and maybe a light blanket), and had a very uncomfortable night, tossing, turning, aching, cold, shaking. Next morning I was a bit tired but nearly perfectly fine. By that evening I was back to normal, or as normal as I get.
And what does this have to do with karma? There are metaphysical systems that suggest that when the kundalini rises, it can be accompanied by a sense of great heat, while other systems suggest that a huge infusion of Spirit, a sort of spiritual “data dump,” can also cause such symptoms.
Most metaphysical systems also suggest that energy blockages can be burned away in some sense. I think that this might have been what was going on. The term “burned away” might be more literal than figurative than I expected. Maybe this was the clearing away of the karma I’d come here to release.
Maybe I didn’t have to do, be, or learn anything, just become physical so there was a pathway for the karma to be loosed.
Since it’s only in the physical that we can incur karma in the first place, it makes sense that it’s only in the physical that we can “burn it off,” as the saying goes. And now I think I know why that saying goes.
And the result of this karmic burning off? If that’s what it was. I have no idea. At this point I don’t feel much different than I did before. I have received various kinds of communications/messages, though, that suggest that a big change in my life is imminent.
Stay tuned. Film at ten.
Wow! Totally fascinating. I’m making popcorn. Which day will the movie be on?
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Well, Sharon, I’m not sure how movie-worth a night of shivers and shakes would be – unless you’re Humphrey Bogart in The African Queen. LOL Sam
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What an interesting concept. At the time of your initial reading, did you believe already in karma?
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Hi Myra. If you mean my original reading by the psychic, I had almost no understanding of karma, didn’t actually believe in it, I s’pose. I was still under the impression that we got one life to try to get it all “right” and then when we died we’d either go to heaven or hell. I was sure I’d go to heaven, though. *G*
If I had any idea of karma it was only insofar as what we did during this lifetime might – or might not – come back to us in some form, like if I was mean to a neighbor kid, somebody in the future might be mean to me. That was about as far as my understanding went.
As I went further along the path, though, I came to understand more about reincarnation and then, of course, karma started to make more sense. It was still in the sense of action/reaction, though, which is valid, of course, but at least understanding about other lifetimes gave me a clearer perspective on karma.
That psychic told me about three other lifetimes that had bearing on my current life. Even then, with my limited understanding, I could see how those ideas and attitudes and experiences could be reflected in my current life and have an effect on me now.
And up until the other day when I had the FUO, my understanding of karma was still pretty much cause/effect/action/reaction.
Then I had that insight that, at least for me, clarified it even more. I still have some thinking to do about it, but I suspect that karma is not as simple as I’d believed, or at least not restricted to action/reaction, etc. Except, maybe, in the sense that beliefs and attitudes cause actions and if we change the beliefs, the reaction is no longer necessary. I wonder if that could be called “grace.” Hmmm. Thanks for reading. Sam
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